Sleep....

1. Bite me

2. Had a great birthday

3. You lied and mad that I am just realizing it

4. Positive thoughts!

5. What color will be next?

6. Chicken noodle soup from scratch

7. Must make a change

8. Making progress

9. If I could.....

10. Juices and berries

11. Love me some him

12. Shouldn't have taken 3 Benadryl

13. Straight or curly?

14. Taking a quick nap

15. I wonder if I will ever get it

16. Feeling myself

17. 35 miles....

18. Can I kick it?

19. Normal is over rated?

20. This is harder than I thought

21. Saving is the goal

22. Tears of joy

23. No you may not touch my hair

24. Tomorrow!

25. Favorite football team?

26. I have feelings too

27. Until next time 

You know me too well (this was written on the 15th.....don't know why it says the 14th)

1. There is a difference between multiple wives and multiple bitches ~Crissle

2. Waking up crying is never good :-/

3. Got first Christmas gift of this year......an iPad air!

4. The sexy research we do ~head of our department (never thought of what I do as sexy)

5. Scandal is a jacked up show! I am on nobody's team (well except for Harrison and maybe Huck, but that's it) they all need counseling and got daddy issues!

6. I want a do over with you

7. Going to see Best Man Holiday tonight!!!!

8. Personal responsibility, do you take it? Do you accept your own role in what happens to you?

9. Gets tired of people telling me to wait and be patient!

10.  Does anyone know all of you? I mean are you open and honest about all of you with anyone in life? Or are there some things you will carry with you to the grave? Do you think that is good or bad?

11. Had no clue that Rose Rollins was Nia Long's sister, learn something new everyday

12. I have no desire to get high, but having convos with avid weed smokers can be quite entertaining

13. The moment you are at gas pump and you stop it right on the dollar! #win

14. I need a concert with ALL of the artist from Robert Glasper's Black Radio 2.......will travel semi far for this, make it happen!!!

15. Why is bacon so freakin good??? I could go back to being a pescatarian if it wasn't for this!

I can admit it

1. When I smell you when I sit on my couch

2. Have things changed?

3. I am a rock star at my job

4. I have to remember why I can't!

5. Your voice

6. Our convos

7. My thoughts

8. I get it

9. Could you still love me?

10. Excited about tonight

11. Change is inevitable

12. This cd is on repeat

13. I love you still

Thoughts while waiting till marriage......

1. My ultimate goal is to wait till marriage

2. This is not always easy

3. It makes sense to me

4. I often find it funny how people believe God for the material things, but don't believe he can sustain you while waiting

5. I do get tired of people's assumptions that being a virgin makes you a "good girl" associating sex to being bad or good is not cool

6. Realizes this decision has caused some people to not even attempt

7. Gets frustrated when people say they can respect my decision, but they just can't do it, to me it is saying you have no power over choices you make

8. Even if you are not waiting till marriage I truly don't understand how people can randomly sleep with people they hardly know....birth control is not 100% can you see yourself having a child with this person?

9. Waiting till marriage coupled with sometimes feeling I will never get married.....not a good feeling

10. I have never heard anybody say they regret waiting.....but I have heard plenty of people say they regret not waiting

11. My faith is the main motivation for me waiting amongst a few other things

12. I am not a unicorn!!!!

13. The look when people find out......sometimes reason why I usually don't disclose or avoid discussion

14. I still don't understand how you accidentally have sex.......there are several steps involved before you get it in

15. Please don't assume that I am naive

16. I have several friends who have waited till marriage......so it can be done

17. Temptation is real.....if someone says it is not that's a lie

18. My views are not of judgment but more of my thought process

19. Why do people equate sex to love?

20. People who say it is easier for me because I have never......please don't assume (assuming is a major theme today)

21. This is my story.......my life.....my walk.....so until you walk in my shoes

22. There is a reason why my short list are people that I can't have.....just being honest

23. This is something I am not ashamed of, don't know why anyone would be, but  I also don't look at it as a badge of honor.....it is what it is

24. Surprisingly.....my mother has no clue, she assumes too

25. When that day comes......

26. What if I never get married?

27. This past year had my first HIV/STD test......why was I nervous? 

28. Although I do feel sometimes I am the only one out there......I refuse to believe it

29. Really thinks people should have more open conversations about sex and sexuality......especially in the church

30. I am open to any questions from people who find it fascinating......but don't understand why people find it fascinating

31. Took a lot of me to type these out....and if you are reading this I actually got the courage to post it.

Can do it!!!

1. Tomorrow is the big day

2. Why did I have to get sick?

3. Your birthday is soon.....

4. I love me!!!!

5. Can I actually do it?

6. Almost unpacked

7. Need to go grocery shopping 

8. Sticking to the budget

9. I have to dress up tomorrow

10. Vegan leather?

11. I am getting excited

12. Bills paid!

13. What shall I eat today?

14. I really want to go on a date for my birthday....

15. I wonder about you

16. Sleepy....

17. Tomorrow will be a good day

18. I have a crush on you

19. Finishing up the wire

20. Benadryl is my friend

21. McNulty is a mess

22. Love her I do....

Rough start.....

1. I can admit......I'm getting older

2. This last text convo I had......no comment

3. Love her I do....

4. Why do I let people get to me

5. My feet are still recovering

6. God is still in control

7. Times like this I wish I wasn't so different

8. I care too freakin much

9. Never once did I expect this to happen

10. Should I tell him....

11. Being sick is not for me

12. Waterparks....

13. Every little step I take!!

14. This time tomorrow :-)

15. Might watch my favorite movie tomorrow

16. It is not about you

17. It is not about you

18. I miss your touch, your smell, you.....

19. Wow.....

20. Inevitable tragedy...

New music Tuesday!!!

1. Living your TRUTH takes real courage! --Gabrielle Union
2. There was a spider on my gas pump this morning.......not cool
3. Loves most of my coworkers
4. The ponytail will be a staple this summer
5. Might sound cold, but how old is Nelson Mandela? He has left his impact and his legacy still leaves.
6. Love my mother, but iCant!!!
7. I really care about you......
8. Each day I come to work the more I realize I need a vacation
9. True friends are rare
10. In my life......not always easy being different
11. I think I broke my pinky finger
12. Finding me....
13. Should love hurt? Not talking physically
14. Original random thoughts.....lost
15. Finding me....
16. 32 years, 9 months, and 30 days.....
17. Tired of people telling me to be patient and wait.....until you walk in my shoes
18. I love you
19. Bacon is a gift from God!
20. Wine tasting tomorrow with friends!
21. If the hot sign is on you must stop.....if you don't you have committed a sin
22. My thoughts.....my feelings
23. You are like cocoa butter to my heart ~India Arie (seriously??)
24. Broke the cardinal rule of work potlucks.......hope I don't get sick
25. I do wish I could cry in front of people.......I just can't do it

One random thought is hard.....

1. I can only be me!!! Except me or leave me!!! Your choice :-)

March 31, 2013

1. It is Resurrection Sunday!
2. Do you remember any of your Easter speeches?
3. I am wearing flips flops and a dress today I am happy and I don't care if it rains!
4. Tomorrow will be one random thought.....what shall it be?
5. I actually miss the days of Greenwood C.M.E. (don't tell my mom)
6. Run Forrest Run!!!
7. Nothing but the blood of Jesus....
8. Misses my family.....the old times
9. It's because you found your precious Olivia doesn't have the secrets of the universe tucked between her magical thighs~ Mellie
10. I love a British accent
11. 32 years, 7 months, and 6 days
12. It is not easy
13. There is a reason why I called my blog If you only knew.....
14. How I feel right now is why I don't tell people much
15. 2 CHAINZ!!!!
16. Has to focus
17. Just to be close to you.....
18. Easter candy will be 50% of now, score!
19. My weakness is....
20. Insomnia sucks!
21. Keep going back in forth if I am going to see Tyler Perry's new movie.....got a free ticket so no money wasted
22. This new India Arie song is called cocoa butter?
23. The past is the past for a reason.....got to let it go
24. Purple toes!!!!
25. What shall I cook today?
26. I like professional women with ho tendencies ~a friend (#dead)
27. Last night United Tenors "I'm in the Midst" really got me through
28. Do something nice for a stranger today
29. I am weird I get that.....
30. Looking forward to my Sunday nap!!!
31. All I can to say is Happy Easter Day!! ~ Lil Darryl