Thursday, October 31, 2013

Thoughts while waiting till marriage......

1. My ultimate goal is to wait till marriage
2. This is not always easy
3. It makes sense to me
4. I often find it funny how people believe God for the material things, but don't believe he can sustain you while waiting
5. I do get tired of people's assumptions that being a virgin makes you a "good girl" associating sex to being bad or good is not cool
6. Realizes this decision has caused some people to not even attempt
7. Gets frustrated when people say they can respect my decision, but they just can't do it, to me it is saying you have no power over choices you make
8. Even if you are not waiting till marriage I truly don't understand how people can randomly sleep with people they hardly know....birth control is not 100% can you see yourself having a child with this person?
9. Waiting till marriage coupled with sometimes feeling I will never get married.....not a good feeling
10. I have never heard anybody say they regret waiting.....but I have heard plenty of people say they regret not waiting
11. My faith is the main motivation for me waiting amongst a few other things
12. I am not a unicorn!!!!
13. The look when people find out......sometimes reason why I usually don't disclose or avoid discussion
14. I still don't understand how you accidentally have sex.......there are several steps involved before you get it in
15. Please don't assume that I am naive
16. I have several friends who have waited till marriage......so it can be done
17. Temptation is real.....if someone says it is not that's a lie
18. My views are not of judgment but more of my thought process
19. Why do people equate sex to love?
20. People who say it is easier for me because I have never......please don't assume (assuming is a major theme today)
21. This is my story.......my life.....my walk.....so until you walk in my shoes
22. There is a reason why my short list are people that I can't have.....just being honest
23. This is something I am not ashamed of, don't know why anyone would be, but  I also don't look at it as a badge of honor.....it is what it is
24. Surprisingly.....my mother has no clue, she assumes too
25. When that day comes......
26. What if I never get married?
27. This past year had my first HIV/STD test......why was I nervous? 
28. Although I do feel sometimes I am the only one out there......I refuse to believe it
29. Really thinks people should have more open conversations about sex and sexuality......especially in the church
30. I am open to any questions from people who find it fascinating......but don't understand why people find it fascinating
31. Took a lot of me to type these out....and if you are reading this I actually got the courage to post it.





Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Tears

1. The thirst is real
2. You have to know your worth
3. Praying about next move
4. Tomorrow's random thoughts will have a theme
5. Think
6. I just want to love you
7. You crack me up
8. I wish
9. My escape
10. I hate it
11. No way you get it
12. Screenshots are eternal
13. The battery life on this phons is amazing
14. If I told you
15. Craziness!
16. My feelings
17. You make me smile
18. And the truth comes out
19. Doctors!
20. I wish you understood
21. Scandal tomorrow
22. Emergency
23. Tears of joy
24. Just say no
25. When I cry
26. You have no clue
27. All of me
28. Music is awesome
29. I work hard
30. You are frustrating 

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Thinking

1. You know
2. Funny how I can tell
3. Not feeling social
4. God is.....
5. Crack kills
6. Allergies
7. Crying
8. Time for a change
9. Today's smoothie was good
10. Don't get it
11. All I want
12. If I could tell you
13. I miss you 
14. Not as nervous
15. Going to have a good night
16. You are the joy and air I breathe....
17. Monster balls
18. You get one chance
19. No way
20. Do you know you are an asshole?
21. All I want is you
22. I too can be scared
23. You are stupid
24. Positive thoughts
25. I try my hardest
26. Black Radio 2
27. Allah Hathaway's voice though.....
28. My God!!!
29. Sneezes hurt


Monday, October 28, 2013

Crazy Eyes

1. Last name chainz first name two
2. What God has for me
3. Glad I got that out of the way
4. Praying for wisdom
5. I got you
6. Will be social one day
7: Thursday....
8. Sometimes
9. Warmth
10. I can only be me
11. Jack and Jill
12. You are special
13. Today's smoothie was not great
14. Remember your purpose
15. Until you know my story
16. What did I do to you?
17. I get it
18. Will not be bad tonight
19. Secrets
20. Tomato soup
21. Why do people refuse to change?
22. Thankful for the few friends I have
23. If I told you I was gay would you love me less?
24. Never trust a big butt and a smile
25. Loving the new phone
26. Must relax
27. You are special to me
28. The blackberries.....not feeling them 


Sunday, October 27, 2013

Sneezing

1. Sunday naps rock
2. Just woke up
3. Needed rest
4. First day of smoothies down
5. Must remember to shop tomorrow
6. Making the best of this week
7. Good to see friends
8. I get it now
9. Taking it to heart
10. Skin is slowly improving
11. What shall I do tomorrow?
12. You make me smile!
13. I will get my iPad this weekend
14. Chipped a nail
15. Must catch up on reading
16. Law & Order
17. You never know what people are going through
18. Why I go to early services
19. Changing
20. Stop! Collaborate and listen!
21. He is too cute
22. I pray for you
23. My mom is awesome
24. I try not to be mean
25. If she makes you happy
26. Noticed something interesting today
27. First selfie on new phone below

Saturday, October 26, 2013

It is Saturday!

1. It is time for me to go
2. Faith work!
3. Which new ipad shall I get?
4. Loving my new phone
5. God is real
6. Snitches get stiches
7. I just want to hold you again
8. I wonder if I can get what I want?
9. Smoothies start tomorrow!
10. My soup turned out great
11. I am not the mediator!
12. These are grown as people
13. Having second thoughts
14. Yes you are getting on my nerves
15. I need to do my research
16. I will not do your job. 
17. Leftovers are amazing
18. Is going to try to be more social next year
19. I am setting goals
20. My mother's birthday is soon
21. Cheese grits
22. I need a mimosa
23. Not as sleepy as I could be
24. No more sodas
25. I love you
26. God is.....


Friday, October 25, 2013

Sneezing all morning!!

1. My mother said I will be married in 3 years....... O_o
2. Don't bring personal drama to work
3. Nutribullet is ordered!!
4. Farmers market tomorrow!!!
5. Yesterday went well
6. The things my mother says.....hillarious!!
7. First date.......
8. Figuring things out
9. My refusing to accept that it is getting cold outside was challenged this morning.....heavy sweater and light jacket (no coat!!!)
10. Thanks to Scandal today's playlist 
11. Chipotle Money ~Kid Fury
12. I have a very low tolerance for stupid people
13. Can we have winter without cold weather?
14. I will not get sick!
15. I might have to dress up for church Sunday..........nooooooo!!!!!!
16. I can respect you and not agree with you
17. Really needs a hug
18. Sometimes you just have to realize......you might have stopped sing drugs but your brain cells are already jacked, not my fault
19. Milk does a body good
20. Think I am going to make this Mexican crockpot soup tonight
21. The ability to analyze and think.......a lot of people can't do that
22. Sometimes that extra shot of espresso is needed.....this morning was one of those times
23. Work hard, play harder!!!!
24. Will I go home for a Thanksgiving??
25. Everyone’s moving forward. Time doesn’t wait for anybody. The only time to make things happen is now. ~Unknown