Feelings

1. Not always easy to deal with them

2. Feelings can be good or bad

3. I had them for you

4. They can make you cry

Clarity

1. The Yonce did that......

2. This week, no month too many emotions, trying to deal with them all

3. Learning to deal with my reality.....now will I ever be completely okay and open with it? No sure......

4. Daddy Pope read Fitz for filth!!!! The use of the word boy and the meaning of all he said.....some of our grandparents, parents, OUR stories......

5. Salted caramel chocolate chip cookie bars almost didn't get made....how did I forget butter?

6. I just want you to be happy......love ya!

7. The gif that Eloise sent me of Idris......YASSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

8. Think I have decided random thoughts will end after a year.....back to my regular blog on more of a consistent basis

9. Thanking God for the ram in the bush!!!! 

10. Is ya happy? ~TI

11. Think I might do a video random thoughts one day......

12. How do you define love?

13. If someone ever got a hold of my texts........ #dontjudgeme

I love my ponytail!!!

1. Why did I sign up for match.com.......this is going to be short lived, does not look promising :-/

2. When was the last time you ate fish sticks? Is that really fish?

3. Sometimes I wish I could just say it, explaining how I feel is never easy....especially when no one ever understands

4. Your emergency is not my emergency

5. You in a box n...... Cause and effect ~Juicy J

6. The moment you realize pretty soon flip flops are going to have to be retired for the cold months......I will not cry

Friend???? (alternate post for today....)

Took a lot for me to post.....I wonder will I let them read....but posting lets me get some of my thoughts and feelings out right now

1. What was I thinking?

2. Maybe I expect too much out of friends. 

3. I opened up to you....

4. You said things were going to change....you lied

5. You know things I have told no one

6. I considered you a friend

7. Don't give me bull shit about I am going to be a better friend and be there for you and then go ghost

8. I am not needy, but I do expect someone to do what they say

9. I don't like to keep count, but it has been 3 months since you didn't respond to text or phone call and you expect me to just be like it didn't happen

10. I have ALWAYS answered texts, calls, messages from you despite what I was struggling with personally.....can I say the same for you?

11. I just want you to be happy and the best for you

12. Maybe being just friends can't work for us, or at least for me

13. I don't know why I care about you so much.....maybe I do know why, but not ready to admit it

14. I get we are different, but that is one  thing I liked about you

15. I think back to the beginning.....was that your only motive?

16. Not trying to change you, but after numerous times of me telling you what irks me or hurts me yet you still do it? Do you not see why or how I can become frustrated?

17. Maybe you have no clue how you affected how I view things or how I react to people.....like I said I opened up to you . You knew me and making new friends is hard for me

18. It is hard, but think it is easier for me not to talk

19. Maybe I just misread everything, maybe you are not the person I enjoyed hanging with, talking to, and having fun with

20. If you need me I got your back, but expecting you to follow through or do the same for me.....can't keep hoping for it.

May 11, 2013

1. Can't feel my legs

2. I walked 2.2 miles.....JESUS!!!

3. I still have feelings for you

4. Black women do motivate each other

5. Why are people shocked when you say you are waiting for marriage to have sex? Didn't say it was easy, but it is possible

6. The Wire gets better every time I watch it

7. Still on Lil Wayne's Rich as.....

8. Operation death of fat girl

9. Really needs to do something to my hair

10. Maybe if I tell you how I feel....

11. Foolishness!!!!!!